Envy

Tonight is just one of those nights where I am so full of envy of other parents that don't have kids with Type 1.Tonight I started thinking about envy and how much of it I have everyday.

I just wish life was easier.

 I envy parents that can allow their child to have sleepovers or the children that are able to go to sleepovers and not have to be afraid that no one will be there to take care of them

I envy the simplicity of life such as being able to just grab your kids and jump in the car and go.I laugh when I hear people complain about how much time it takes just to get the kids in the car to go anywhere. Well try to do that plus make sure you have the meter and insulin and of course juiceboxes and snacks for if they go low oh! wait a minute we also need the glucagon just in case and better grab the glucose gel in case they are unable to swallow oh! and some free food oh!! and check your blood sugar before we go to make sure we are all good.

I envy other parents that can put their kids to bed and pretty much know they are going to wake up in the morning.With diabetes there is no guarantee of  blood sugars not crashing while your child sleeps.

I envy other parents that don't have to constantly pierce their childs skin with needles everday.

I envy everything about a life without diabetes.But with all that said I  love my daughter more than anything in the whole world and would not change a thing I do. I do everything I do for her.With or without envy tomorrow  is going to arrive early so I must go to bed but first off to check her sugar. Goodnight and thoughts of good numbers and lots of sleep in the days ahead

Life Lately

Its been along time since I posted on here we have been really busy.Getting ready for the Telus Walk To Cure Diabetes and a coin drive at Madisons school plus of course just the normal craziness of the D life. 

We had our last checkup at childrens on April 19th and I didnt get the go ahead for a pump but we did switch to basal bolus using injections.For those reading that don't know that is basically imitating what a healthy pancreas does but using injections.So Madison gets a shot of longacting insulin at bedtime and now whenever she eats food containing carbs she gets a shot.It is alot more work as we have to be totally precise at carb counting but we are seeing much better blood sugar levels. It also means that I am at the school everyday for lunch to give a shot plus I am also called to give a correction shot at 10 or 2 if she needs one. So basically I spend most of my day running back and forth to the school.I am finding it really exhausting so I am looking forward to summer break in 5 weeks.

Our endo did tell us that he will give us the go ahead for the pump at our next visit in October if Madisons A1C comes down to within range. I am really looking forward to the pump.She will be able to operate the pump herself at school with the supervision of a trained seta and myself being on the phone during operation of the pump. I can only dream about the freedom right now. Imagine not holding my cell phone like it is the most precious thing in the world; waiting for that phone call from the school.But for now It is what it is .

However I do believe the kids in the class would miss me as I get hugs from 10 little girls upon entering and exiting the class.I have been instructed to make sure I give one little blonde beauty a bigger hug than the rest.I think she might be a little jealous of other kids hugging her mommy. I also add an entertainment value to lunchtime.  They all love to watch Madison get her shot and all comment on how tough she is.She just loves the attention.I realize I spend way too much time at the school giving shots when a boy in another class came up to me on the playground to tattle on another child. He thought I was one of the supervisors. 

Well it isnt a school day but we are off to another crazy day of  the D life . Will post again soon.Wishing everyone good numbers and lots of sleep in the days ahead.